Friday, April 29, 2011

O Blessed Sunshine!

Today I got up early, ran around South Bend getting dirty and taking pictures in the gorgeous weather, spent some time at 933 trying to write and mostly failing to even get as far as trying, did errands and grocery shopping and two loads of laundry, and did some wedding organizing (i.e. finally gave in to my spreadsheet addiction) while watching Glee.

Tomorrow is back to the grind. And not just the regular old grind! New Boss Lady texted me this morning to ask if I could come in early, so I'm working eight and a half hours tomorrow! JOY!

However, she also mentioned a possibility of working at 933 on Sunday, which would completely make up for it. *crosses fingers*

Off to bed soonish, I'm hoping to make the getting-up-early-to-art thing a habit. Or should I sleep in to gather energy for the freaking long day? Hmmm...

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Rules For A Day Off? You Read Right!

Honesty time!

I've been depressed over the past few days. I know, almost certainly, that it is a combination of hormones (yup, it's That Time), exhaustion (mental and physical) from work, and frustration with feeling stuck in/with things I don't like but can't change.

That's just background, really, to explain Ryan's rules for me today on my day off:

[o] There will be three meals. Breakfast is done, and he's in charge of dinner, but lunch WILL involve some kind of protein, a fruit or vegetable, and no grease or sugar.
[o] I will do something productive for two hours or so, if only because I am unable to have an "unproductive" (by my definition) day without feeling like I wasted the day.
[o] I will spend at least two hours doing something purely relaxing. This can be photography, reading a book, watching TV or a movie, whatever, as long as it's completely relaxing.

So, my plan for the day: Ryan works from 3:30 to 8:30. When he leaves, I grab my laptop and head for 933, where I will poke at novels and have a protein plate and a delicious drink and see awesome people I haven't really seen in quite a while. Around 6 or so, I come back home and either read with music in the background, or watch some Glee or My Cousin Vinny or something else silly and fun. When Ryan gets home, there will be a delicious dinner and socializing.

Wish my luck!

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

I Might Even Needlepoint It Onto A Pillow.

So, a bit after we got engaged, I went over to Offbeat Bride and joined the Tribe, the forum for fans and followers of OBB who are actively planning their weddings. Reading the blog and forum posts have already helped me start a little post of my own in my head, but today I got help from an unexpected source. Two, actually.

I forget why it came up today, but CE and Shift AB started talking about getting married...or specifically, how they don't want to get married if they can help it. Actually, AB just doesn't want to get married yet, but their point was still the same: they didn't want to be tied down. They're both in committed relationships and don't plan on changing that at all, but they still see a wedding ring as a noose. AB said, almost verbatim, "There are still so many things I want to do!"

I said this then, and I'll say this now, and I'll say it over and over until my tongue falls out of my head, and I feel so strongly about it I'm even going to go over the top and bold this sucker: If getting married means you no longer get to do the things you want to do with your life, you're marrying the wrong person.

AB conceded this, then said that usually getting married led to people assuming that Family Life would begin immediately thereafter, namely Having A Bunch of Kids. Also, "people" usually included the bride, whether the groom is aware of it or not.

Let me get this out of the way now, for anyone who was wondering: Ryan and I are not having kids anytime soon. We both want kids, at least two but maybe three, and we're not putting it off because we're hesitant about that. To be honest, I'm getting as bad as my mother when I see babies in public, to the point where Ryan will start quietly ticking at me until I punch him in the arm. It's just going to be a long time before we can.

The same year we're getting married, Ryan is planning on going back to school to get a Master's in Education--hell, he'll theoretically be starting the program a month before the wedding. The program is about three years long, and it's as likely as not that he won't be able to do a full- or even part-time job at the same time. We may not even be able to afford an apartment, let alone a baby, even if I have a full-time job (and sell photography on the side and whatever else I'll be doing for the next 18 months to save for the wedding). Then, after he graduates, he has to find a good, secure job, and we have to get financially secure enough to have our own place. Ideally a house, but that's unlikely.

So: marriage, diploma, career, home. THEN babies.

If I hear one squeak about babies between the exchanging of the rings and the acquiring of a lease or mortgage, there will be blood.

Glad we have that straight.

And no, this isn't the blog post that's slowly forming in my head, which is tentatively titled Taking Back The Wedding. This is just stuff.

I'm exhausted and frustrated with life in general and I really wish I didn't have work tomorrow but I do so poop.

Monday, April 25, 2011

Did I Mention Blargh?

Not sure what to call this list...it's a combination of things going on in my life, things I WANT to be going on, things I'm focusing on or need to be or want to be...oy.

Anyway:

[o] On The/Running (haven't touched it or even thought about it in at least a month)
[o] photography (energy, schedule, weather, blargh)
[o] Etsy photography shop (energy, schedule, pricing, policies, blargh)
[o] wedding (yes it's a year and a half from now I CAN'T WAIT THAT LONG TO PLAN)
[o] moving (consists mostly of worrying over money)
[o] trip to Connecticut (waiting to book tickets depending on upcoming funeral)
[o] housework (dishes, cleaning, laundry, feeling like it's all on me, BLARGH)
[o] oh, yeah, that job thing (a.k.a. 99% of my life)

And now, it's time to hopefully fetch my laundry. I say hopefully because, when I went down to move it from washer to dryer, there was a finished load in each dryer. I had to empty one to put mine in, and I'm nervous that I'll find my clothes removed, or an angry note, or an angry person, or I don't know. Oy. Wish me luck.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Ups And Downs And Inside Outs.

I'm extremely tired and have to get up on the early side, so here are the highlights:

[o] whoever thought Easter would be slow at Starbucks when Lent just ended and no place else is open and it's a travel holiday GUESS WHAT YOU WERE WRONG
[o] stood up to a co-worker who used "queer" to insulting describe a guest, and told him that shit isn't funny. I had wildly shaking hands and racing heart and felt like puking for a good bit afterward, and he probably just thinks I'm just an over-reactive feminazi who can't take a joke, but it's a start.*
[o] another co-worker brought in her crock pot and made soup for us. ham, cheese, potato, and bacon soup. I LIKE HER.
[o] Ryan made Alton Brown's French toast for dinner. ommmmmm.
[o] watched Easy A with Ryan, BJ, and Sameh after dinner. Very good, very funny, very entertaining, even had a sweet ending that made me smile. :D
[o] watched the most recent Game of Thrones. Spoiler: THE QUEEN'S A BITCH.

Tomorrow is up early for laundry (and hopefully photography), store meeting at 12:30 (yayyyy), eight hour shift to follow. WOO.

*Exact conversation:
Me: Hey. That's not funny.
Him: Why, are you? Wait, of course you're not.
Me: Why does it matter? Do I have to be black to be offended by a racist joke?
Him: Maybe you do.

ERRRRRRRRRRRRGH

Saturday, April 23, 2011

This Weekend Is A Bitch.

Today was insane in a different way than earlier this week. Mainly because, for the first half hour I worked, there were seven people on the floor. Seven. Five is usually the max number, three or four the average. Seven was a bit ridiculous. I walked out and had no idea what to do. There was already someone barring hot drinks, barring frappucinos, ringing front, ringing drive-thru, cleaning, brewing...I was a bit superfluous!

Then, after 7 or so, it just died. No one. For a long time. Whee.

Tomorrow is Easter, and we of course are open our normal hours, and we are not getting paid any extra. WOO. Most seemed to think it'd be pretty slow since most of the world would be (a) closed, or (b) busy with family stuff, but I am suspicious. We thought Thanksgiving would be dead, and I'll never forget the madness I came into that day. Easter is another travel holiday, with people driving to have dinner with their families. While it's not nearly as big as Thanksgiving, I still see plenty of opportunity for us to be swamped with people wanting coffee for the road.

Of course, this store is also not directly next to the highway, so maybe we'll be lucky? Cross your fingers?

There's not much else going on...actually that's not true. My cousin's husband, a wonderful man, husband, and father of two small girls, has been moved into hospice care. I've spent the past two days checking my phone constantly to see if I've gotten The Call from my mother. It's sad and shitty and unfair in every aspect, and I don't know what else to say about it right now. I'm sending love and thoughts and prayers, and invite everyone else to do the same.

For now...dinner and rest.

Friday, April 22, 2011

I Missed Earth Day. Poop.

My day:

[o] wake up
[o] get late breakfast/visit 933 crew with Ryan
[o] see Ryan off to work
[o] do mini photo session with engagement ring until camera insists that every single battery I put in it is dead. grr.
[o] go grocery shopping!
[o] return home in time for Aurelie to arrive and help me bring up groceries
[o] go back to Target with Aurelie and BJ to get her hair dye (and me candy, and BJ stuff)
[o] discover the Mishawaka Target doesn't have her hair dye
[o] go to Target across town
[o] get hair dye
[o] return home, watch several hours of Say Yes To The Dress, first with Aurelie's company and then by myself after she gets tired and goes home
[o] help Sameh after she steps on sharp tweezers and stabs herself in the foot
[o] eat dinner with Ryan
[o] type up entry

Whee!

I didn't do anything to celebrate Earth Day because, honestly, I wasn't aware of it until it was too late. I am glad I didn't work today, however, as apparently it was insane from Starbucks' policy of giving free coffee to anyone with a mug or tumbler on Earth Day. All day. WHEE.

Tomorrow, however, is back to the grind for another five days. I really needed this day of rest, and I hope I don't need one quite so badly by the time Thursday rolls around. This past week was stupidly busy and exhausting, and I'm not sure I could take another forty hours of it!

Seriously, you people--how does anyone work a 40 hour work week and go to college? Or raise kids? Or, I don't know, do ANYTHING?!

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Pizza and Bubbly and Grumps, Oh My!

I'd change the time to be posting on Wednesday, but hell with it.

Yesterday (that is, Tuesday) was pretty great. Ryan and I had the day off together to official celebrate being engaged. We went out and did some shopping, I got my ring back from being sized (:D), and the night included pizza and champagne for all (thanks, Mom! :D) while watching Tron: Legacy and episodes of Camelot. Hee :)

Today was...less awesome. I had to get up early (for me) to get laundry done so I could have clean work clothes. Then it was...insanely busy. And understaffed. And co-workers were pissy. And bleh. Then one of my co-worker's roommates, another Starbucks employee, came in completely drunk and hit on me pretty hardcore. It wasn't creepy so much as awkward, and I just know that the two other workers at the time will never let me hear the end of it. Oy.

Next week's schedule looks to be the same as this week, except instead of 40 hours it's 39 hours plus a one hour store meeting (fuuuun). I'm trying to track down my boss so I can talk to her about taking time off for my trip to Connecticut, but she's almost never at the store when I'm there, and it's a bit too complicated of a conversation for texting. Oy. I'll figure it out.

For now: so tired! Sleep...

Monday, April 18, 2011

Blarghhhhhhhhhhh.

Uggggh. Today. Was. STUPID.

I arrived at work, and it was a trainwreck. Cleaning rags were just plain missing, things weren't just under stocked but stupidly stocked, it was almost nonstop the entire day. I don't know how many times I took a breath, said to myself "Finally, now I can do one of the million things that desperately need doing!" only to hear the drive-thru ding or see someone walk through the door. And most of the customers were (a) stupid, (b) rude, (c) high maintenance (half soy half nonfat? one and a half shots? REALLY?), or (d) orders of more than three drinks.

UGH.

Still. It's over. And tomorrow is a day off. With my fiancée! The first since we got engaged! A WHOLE DAY TO ACTUALLY TALK AND PLAN AND CELEBRATE WHAT A FLIPPIN' IDEA!

...I'm not cranky.

The plans for tomorrow include getting paint sample cards to think about color schemes, picking up some things for Kitty and Alex's wedding in June, poking the internet on the best dates to purchase tickets for a trip to Connecticut, and doing a real grocery trip for the first time in two weeks. WHEE!

For now, it's dinner (yes, at midnight) and random interneting and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Lesson One: It's Not That Scary, Ya Big Wuss.

Man, purposefully not updating for a week has really thrown me off. Blah.

Right, like I wasn't off before.

Yesterday was an interesting work day. It was pretty busy when I got there, and pretty much stayed that way for half my shift. The second half...dead. Things were done done done by seven thirty, so I got to leave around ten to nine, forty minutes before my shift was scheduled to end. Score!

Got home, found chicken on a plate on a counter, being squished under the sugar bin with lemon sitting all over it. Oooo!

Dinner was that chicken, also seasoned with salt and pepper, cooked on the panini press/grill I got Ryan for our anniversary, then sauteed with red and yellow pepper and garlic and white wine and served with linguine. It was delicious, and it was my first informal cooking class...

Both Mom and I joked, upon our engagement, that now I need to learn how to cook. Then Ryan was sick for four days, and I stepped up to the plate and bravely drove out to the local array of fast food places to feed myself and my sick man. It was a lesson...well, no, it was a highlighter stroke over the lesson that I need to learn how to cook real food. So we're working on it bit by bit.

I managed to switch shifts around with a co-worker, so I now have Tuesday off, which will be the first day Ryan and I will have off together since we got engaged. We're finally going to celebrate! Probably with pizza and champagne! Woo! Party!

Speaking of shifts, I have mine in a little while, so it's off to feed and clothe myself and all that junk. Ciao!

Friday, April 15, 2011

I Really Am A Hippie, I Swear.

Today...was the girly day.

Ryan and I got up on the "early" side (for us) and went together to get a planning notebook. I was going to get one yesterday, but I got myself all kinked up by details (padfolio? binder? should it match our theme? am I really having these stupid thoughts?). As predicted, Ryan basically pointed and said "That one works," and now we have a notebook to jot down ideas and plans and tape in inspiration pictures for the wedding and blah blah blah.

The other thing I did today was go on a road trip with Aurelie to the Vera Bradley Outlet Sale in Fort Wayne.

:D

I WAS GOOD. I bought a purse I've been wanting forEVER, and an apron which I've needed anyway, and they were both on really good sale and I came in under budget so THERE.

It was nice to just drive and talk and hang out with Aurelie :) I know I've mentioned her a lot, and there's a good reason: we're almost the same person. She's the Indiana me. So we tend to get along really well. :D

Tomorrow is back to work, five more days of eight hour shifts that I really shouldn't whine about because, hey, I have a pretty damned good job that puts a roof over our heads and medicine in our systems with people I actually like, so nyah.

...I'm tired. Night!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

My Finger Feels Naked...

Dropped the ring off at the jewelry store today to get it sized. It's going to take a week. :( I haven't regularly worn rings in quite a long time, and I only wore this one for a week (and even then, only straight through shifts for three days after getting over the fear of getting it covered in mocha), but I still miss it and feel it's absence.

I know. I'm a sap.

Today was some shopping and chores, the usual for a day off. Tomorrow is the fun day off! Aurelie are going to the Vera Bradley Outlet Sale in Fort Wayne. :D I have an "allowance" to keep me honest amongst the marked down purses, but it's still going to be fuuuuun. Plus Aurelie has a couple of places she wants to show me, including a cool little indie bookshop. WHEE! :D

After that, it's going to be a fun time until my next day off. Next week's schedule is 40 hours, which is awesome money-wise but will be exhausting. Oh well! Yay money!

That's all I have for now. Time for newly-washed, brand-new pajamas and my new book (Offbeat Bride: Creative Alternatives for Independent Brides :D), then bed to prepare for tomorrow's funtime!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

This Is Going To Be A Self-Centered Post. For A Good Reason.

Sorry for the radio silence for a week, but I've really only had one thing to post about since last Friday, and had been unable to due to communication issues...the point is:

WE'RE ENGAGED!

:D

It happened on Friday, and it's been hell ever since. I've worked every night since, including that one, and he's been sick to the point that he called out three days in a row. We actually won't have a corresponding day off to sit down and plan and celebrate until next Friday...not that we have anything we can solidly plan yet.

The tentative date is October eleventh of next year....or 10/11/12 :D That was totally his idea, but I love it. Of course, it is a Thursday, and it'll probably be a popular date which means venues will book early and blah blah blah.

I promise I'll do my best not to make this blog all about wedding stuff from now on. It shouldn't be too hard since, again, it's a year and a half away...still, I'm dying to plan!!

But for now, I must make dinner for the hungry man. More tomorrow!

Monday, April 11, 2011

Apologies for no posts the past few days. Lots of stuff going on. All will be explained in good time, I promise!

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Still Here! Still Alive! Promise!

...I'm bad at this lately.

I'm sorry.

Yesterday (Wednesday) was very productive. I did bank stuff, I got shopping done, I got pricing research done (although it brought up more questions), and I worked for six hours (six extremely long hours thanks to a ridiculously slow night).

Today (Thursday) I did more bank stuff, then spent the evening with Aurelie and Katie. There was walking, baking, movie watching (He's Just Not That Into You, a straight chick flick that I enjoyed), and talking.

...I realized, halfway through the evening, that I was hanging out and being myself with two genuine girlfriends, two girls who genuinely like me and enjoy my company, weirdness and awkwardness and nerdiness and all. I needed this, oh, 15 years ago?

Anyway.

Tomorrow is laundry, possibly some photography, late-anniversary-present-exchanging with Ryan, errand shopping, and a closing shift at Ironwood with Shift D (yay!).

For now: BED.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Closer...Closer!...

I'm a step closer! :D

Tomorrow, I get to work on other steps:

[o] Talking to people at FedExKinkos and getting solid costs for printing & shipping, which I'll then use to set prices
[o] Looking into getting a Post Office box for shop-related mail (returns, checks, etc) (may seem paranoid, but I'm taking into consideration the three adults also living at this address)
[o] Fine-tuning shop policies (returns, exchanges, etc funstuff)

I'm trying to select an Official Opening Date. I think I've mentioned in the past that I'm weird about picking dates. I like them to be auspicious, but I don't want to be silly, blah blah blah. I'll figure it out, but until then I'll take suggestions. Right now I'm considering either May 1st, or my birthday (May 21st). *shrug*

For now, dinner is almost ready, and I am very very hungry. And tired. And sore. And yeah. *thud*

Monday, April 4, 2011

I NEED A DRINK.

Today...was stupid.

It was generally crazy busy for most of the day, and I swear our store had a sign over it inviting all the high maintenance crazies to come in and make our lives more interesting. But it was really two distinct things that made today just ridiculous.

First, a doctor's office called in with an order of 15 drinks, saying they'd be in for them in 10 to 15 minutes. Someone showed up less than ten minutes later, in the drive-thru, expecting them to be ready. Oh, and this is all while people keep coming in and ordering drinks in the store. G'AH.

Then was the really fun moment of the day. I picked up a coffee urn to move it to the sink, and top completely detached from the body. Crash, splash, narrowly missed my feet but got extremely hot coffee on my left shoe. Fortunately, I was able to get my shoe and sock off before I got burned, but my left pinky toe got the brunt of it and hurt like a bitch for an hour or so afterward.

There were other little things--the woman who didn't actually buy anything, just brought in five bags of coffee for me to grind; knocking the cinnamon dolce shaker off the bar and mildly pricking my finger on a shard as I cleaned it up; the other woman who didn't know what her friend had asked her to get, just the strongest coffee we have, I don't know brewed or espresso, well where's your coffee list, AAAAAAAAA.

All is fine now. I'm home, I've had a hot dinner, tomorrow is a shorter mid-shift...whee.

Prepare For Dodgy Updates.

Yesterday was interesting.

Got up at 10:30 and met Aurelie for study time at 933 a bit after 11. We ended up hanging out mostly, which was great :)

Got a text from New Boss Lady while there, asking if I could pick up a shift on Friday at Ironwood, due to schedule stuff. Long and short of it is, new guy hired last week? Two days of no call, no shows. He's gone, and we have 38 hours to cover this coming week. Fun!

So my schedule got futzed with, and it has its ups and downs. Looooong week (but more money!). 4 of the 6 days are closing shifts (but it's better at Ireland, and the one at Ironwood is with Shift D, who I miss, so yay!). Miss a day off (but half the days I don't go in until 4:30, and Aurelie and I are hanging out on Thursday).

It'll be okay. Long, but worth it, and generally okay.

Last night I closed, and our store's renovation began! I'll go in today to new paint, new furniture, new decorations, no sneeze-guard around the front bar, etc etc. And more things will change over the week. Should be interesting!

Alright, time to finish my breakfast and head to work. Eight hours. Wheeeeee.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

I Think I Left My Brain In The Shower.

I had a long day. Not a bad day, just a long one. It had all the potential of being bad--I started it off being very pissed at someone and stuck in a cycle of all the reasons why; the shift that came on is stupid at running breaks and decided not to send me on my ten 2 hours in, when it was slow and there were four other people on the floor, but 3 1/2 hours in, during a rush and just after someone left; my schedule may change next week so I work several eight hour shifts in a row and there's a chance my manager will ask if I can cover a 6AM shift on Friday (HAHAHAHAFUNNY)--but it still wasn't bad.

I'm home, I just got out of a hot shower, waiting for everyone else to get home, waiting for dinner. I could very easily begin waxing philosophical on things like the discussion on abortion I got into with a coworker on Facebook, or honesty and friendship, or even morality in general...I'm in that kind of mindset, and it might even make sense.

But as it is...I just got home, and I'm waiting for dinner, and I just got out of a hot shower. I think I'll listen to some music and continue waiting, stop waiting, and then go to bed.

Tomorrow is another eight hour shift, but I'm going to try my damndest to get up early and meet Aurelie at 933 so we can study together, since I flaked out on our weekly get-together last night and barely see her since transferring.

Whee. Thump. Zzzz.

Friday, April 1, 2011

Days Off Aren't Always Exciting.

Yesterday:
[o] Got up
[o] Drove Sameh to work since she lost her car keys
[o] Spent 3 1/2 hours at 933, me writing and Ryan playing Pokemon
[o] Got dinner
[o] Watched The Rainmaker (my first viewing, really enjoyed it!)
[o] Watched random TV with roommates
[o] Bed

Today:
[o] Got up
[o] Still eating breakfast and getting ready
[o] Doing the paycheck dance: Pick it up at Target, go deposit it at bank, go back to Target to buy groceries
[o] Do some cleaning at home
[o] Go to Aurelie's house to hang out

This weekend is two eight hour shifts, one pre-closing and one closing. Gonna be a long one.

Still feeling a little out of it due to some very weird and creepy dreams last night. Also have the (hopefully) last tendrils of yesterday's bad headache holding on. Meh.

Hopefully going out in the sunshine will help :)