Whups...

I've been bad again with the updates...sorry about that.

I've also been bad with calling anybody, making or keeping plans to hang out with people, and basically anything that doesn't involve sticking my head in the sand.

I am...so stressed out. A lot of it is from guilt, from the aforementioned lack of calls or socializing. I also end up feeling guilty whenever money is tight, despite the fact that I'm not running out spending it on stupid things, or sitting back while Ryan does, or anything like that.

-We move in two weeks in a day. We were originally leaving on Tuesday, the 27th, but the U-Pack trailer won't be picked up until Wednesday, and we sure as hell aren't driving away with our stuff still sitting in the Park Jefferson parking lot. Oh, and our stuff probably won't get there until Monday the 3rd, almost a week later. We COULD guarantee its delivery by Friday, but that's $600 extra. EFF THAT.
-Ryan's last day at Target is either Thursday, Friday, or Saturday, depending on if he gets one or both of the last two covered. It's going to be a relief for both of us, that place has not been kind to him in the least, but it's also means I'll be the only paycheck from then until he gets a job in Connecticut.
-Ry plans on spending his time between quitting and moving packing, since I'm still working up until the 25th. Then he'll be doing most of the loading when the trailer arrives on the 23rd since, again, I'm working that weekend. He's fine with this, and I have full confidence in him, but I still feel guilty that he'll be doing the majority of the labor for this.
-I have two weeks before I leave Indiana, not to visit for who knows how long. I feel this intense pressure to get in as much awesome hanging out as possible before then, especially with Aurelie, my best friend who will most likely be going to Africa in January, and our roommates, who we've become very close to. However, as I mentioned, stress makes me withdraw, which is not conducive to socializing. Ergh.
-Money is tight. Tighttighttight. Our parents are helping, which we can't thank them for enough, but it all has to go to the move itself, so until then we're sucking it in and holding our breath. Fun.
-Work is stressful and frustrating. That One keeps getting written up but not fired, we had our health & sanitation inspection and didn't do very well, I keep hoping to throw together one last hang out with the co-workers I like but scheduling it sucks, etc etc. On the other hand, I have a hard time thinking about anything other than work when I'm there, so I'm not piling stress on top of stress?
-I have to get together a party for 933, it's a requirement, but I've put off planning until the last minute, and it's not going well. The going plan right now is the Monday before we leave, since we'll both be free, the apartment will be mostly empty with lots of room for people, it might even be cleaned up, and it can be an all-day drop-in-a-thon, for openers or closers or whatevers. Not sure if it's going to work out, though. Argh.

On a more positive note, Ryan and I have been talking about other future stuff, when we have to not talk about the move. We've been working on schematics for a future dream house, which has also been a great way to talk about the future and what we want our lives to be like, both in grand schemes and daily details. There's wedding talk, of course, but it still doesn't feel concrete to me, and won't until we're settled in Connecticut and have a way to figure out budget and everything that follows.

Finally, we've been talking about diet and exercise. I've mentioned in past entries that Ryan has been putting together a plan for when we back, starting with seeing a doctor and a nutritionist, moving on to cleanses and major diet changes and exercise routines, and ending with a happy, healthy lifestyle. We had a long talk about it yesterday, I found out more of his plans, and we're getting pretty excited about it.

...well, that's the update for now. I'm about to print off something, then go to work a bit early to see if anything less than three hours isn't enough to get some writing done.

Oh yeah, the print--I made my first sale! Not on Etsy, but when a co-worker followed a link from Facebook to Tumblr and asked about a photo that she loved that wasn't in the shop. Funnily enough, it's the same print that Kitty and Alex picked out for their wedding present. Meanwhile, Fibonacci's Flower has been growing more and more popular. I plan on putting it in the shop when I reopen it after the move. That's another whole post in itself!

Off I go!