Second Job Frustration.

Day off! First of two! Okay!

So far I've...gotten up.

Okay, so a little more than that. I found the number to call at the clinic we went to last month so I can find out why I didn't get a bill when our insurance says I owe them money. I even called the number!...they weren't there. I'll try again later.

I am also currently listening to YouTube videos of an indie group called Bishop Allen, suggested to me by Katie Petunia. So far my favorite song is "Click Click Click Click," about stepping out of the rain and ending up in a picture of someone else's wedding.

Tried to get up and have Writing Time, but ended up choosing sleep instead. >.< Dorita gave me great writing advice, and she reminded me of Stephen King's advice in On Writing (one of my favorite books ever), I'm just...having a hard time following it so far.

For one thing, I don't really have a given "space" for writing. My desk is almost guaranteed to fail unless I'm in a very concentrated mood, what with the to do items on one side and the photography props on the other (which reminds me, I have to take some more picture today!). There is a half-table in the dining room, but it faces a wall with ugly wallpaper, and I feel like I'm stuck in a corner. I liked my set-up at the coffee table the other day, but that's also dangerous--the TV is right there. All these spaces are also easily "invaded" by boyfriend or roommates, through no fault of theirs, so...yeah.

Going to one of the Starbucks in the area might help, except that requires money, which is tight enough right now that I can't "let" myself spend money on coffee so I can spend a couple of hours at a table, not to mention the paranoia of someone grabbing my laptop when I'm in the bathroom or distracted or something.

The Setting Hours advice is already failing, as I keep hitting snooze or changing the alarm or getting up and doing something else. Doesn't help that my sleep schedule has been skewing back toward the wee hours of the morning, which was already a problem before the week of pre-closing and not getting home until 10 started >.< I keep setting the alarm for 10 or 10:30, but the mindset when it goes off is "It's my day off/I get to sleep in late this week when I usually don't get to, I can't waste this opportunity, sleep is very important...zzzz." ARGH.

Getting Ready kind of requires the Setting Hours part, and a Writing Space to go to...argh.

I'm not giving up, and I'm trying very hard to not say "Well, it's already past noon, I guess today is a waste." I'm just frustrated. Ergh.

I think I'll get dressed, eat something, take some pictures, make some cupcakes, then get some help from Ryan when he gets home. He's very good at being authoritatively supportive, he'll probably glue me to a chair and say I can't have any cupcakes until I write something, then refuse to speak to me until I'm productive. Hopefully it works.

Oy...