Call Me Lover. Change-Lover.

The following is this week's horoscope from Free Will Astrology, the site the features Pronoia (the belief that the world is conspiring to shower you with blessings) and eerily accurate horoscopes:

Congrats, Gemini! You have not only weathered your recent phase of relentless novelty; you've thrived on the adjustments it demanded of you. I am hereby awarding you with the rare and prestigious title of Change-Lover, which I only bestow upon one of the signs of the zodiac every four years or so. So what's next on the schedule? The shock of the new will soon subside, giving you a chance to more fully integrate the fresh approaches you've been adopting. I suggest you relax your hyper-vigilance and slip into a slower, smoother, more reflective groove.

Well, this certainly feels true! It was one month yesterday that we arrived in Indiana, with only two cars and a trailer full of stuff. Relentless novelty is a perfect phrase for the past month--so perfect I feel the need to bold it. Everywhere I've looked, there's been a new store, a new restaurant, a new bird, a new habit, a new phrase, a new way of saying or doing things. And I have thrived on it, especially with the new environment of Starbucks.

I know I've been obsessively updating with every little thing about my new job, but I can't help it. I feel more competent and useful than I have in a long time. I wasn't bad at my job at Curves, this is evident from the card the members all signed for me, the presents they gave me before I left, the love and support they gave me. But I could have done more, and I will always regret the way I worked there--hiding in a corner, not striving to shine. I was always afraid of not being able to keep up a conversation, or relate enough with a member, or be motivating enough.

At Starbucks, all my tasks are concrete--pouring, pushing, pulling, mixing, washing, sweeping, mopping, moving. The only abstract element of the job is the attitude, and it's easy enough for me to be upbeat and bubbly, even if I don't feel it 100%. It is immediately evident if I'm doing something wrong, or if I need some improvement. That, along with the fantastic feedback from my superiors and co-workers, leads to feeling like I'm learning and improving, and not just getting by. Thriving, even.

My point is, if this horoscope speaks the truth, then I need to work at slipping into a "slower, smoother, more reflective groove." And not only do I feel that it speaks the truth, I feel like it screams it. Getting into that groove should be easier now than two weeks ago, as I'm getting a paycheck next week that will take off a lot of the stress I've been holding, and I'm feeling more comfortable and confident at my job.

For today, I have done the grocery shopping, and now I plan on grabbing my camera and going back out, to search for picture opportunities. I'll try to be slower, smoother, and reflective as I click away.